I jsut erased a long entry that I had written. . . I was feeling sorry for myself at 5 in the morning. It was such a depresing, sad entry . . . Instead I am going to live in the present and be grateful for all that I have, my darling, newly svelte, hard working husband, my wonderful mother who is always available to lend a hand, I am so thankful she lives close to me, my health, my dear dear friends, my beautiful home, my amazing extended family and my daughter, ther light of my life. When the day arrives that I can also be grateful for my second child I will cherish that at much as I do all the other good things I an blessed to have. And that is all I have to say right now.